fuckyou

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 15:17:17 GMT

I haven't slept in three days and I feel fine.

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=evelynundead

I put a lil stupid weird video I took.

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 04:34:04 GMT

My facebook account got disabled. I am not sure why, but it could've been because I was calling some bitch a nigger and other sluts whore! perhaps perhaps...

I had fun tonight, smoking rrrreeeefer, driving on the beach, watching hilarious episodes of Seinfeld! gosh.

p.s. I lied in that previous entry... obviously.

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 01:41:42 GMT

I am gonna be straightedge for now on. i fucking SWEAR. i feel like death.

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 23:43:22 GMT

ok. my left breast has a huge hard lump in it and it is sore. my left eye is fairly blind and hurts as well. wtf is going on? last night i drank almost a quart of vodka.

i messaged people last night and commented and didn't even remember WTF was going through my head.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 00:32:31 GMT

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 23:07:33 GMT

This is great. haha. I can actually just laugh to myself about people. They really are not getting to me. I laugh at when they fuck up. I laugh at their mind games and their lies! hahaha. I am not stupid, by any means. I just love my fucking self and hate 99% of you!

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 23:25:25 GMT

I feel a bit content for once. as of right now... hope it lasts... I don't let ANYONE control my emotions anymore. I WON'T! I hope I can continue being strong like this...

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 17:11:08 GMT

In the morning I'd awake and couldn't remember
What is love and what is hate?.... the calculations error
What is love and what is hate?
And why does it matter? ....is to love just a waste
How would it matter?

As the dawn began to break....I had to surrender
The universe will have its way - too powerful to master
What is love and what is hate?
And why does it matter? .....is to love just a waste??
And how does it matter?

Flying a kite...

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 06:21:50 GMT

And I see I give you a piece of my mind
But I'm giving you a piece of my mouth
You blushing boy,s how could you be so blind?

And the thousand purple cups of wine
The tearing teeth and the four full tines
The crumpling feast and the dawdling dine

Get me off the floor
Stand there staring for a minute
Like you never saw a girl before
There is the door

And like the streets are like an open mouth
I head south
And you stand fair and square and I stand there
Until the fall blots me out

There is no more
The cat and mouse to block the door
There is no more

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 21:31:46 GMT

I am such a horrible daughter! But all shall be well after tonight.

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 22:18:53 GMT

I never had this feeling before... My heart like just totally fell down to my feet...

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 07:54:27 GMT

Robot Chicken made me laugh tonight. I needed a fucking laugh. "I am Orlando Bloom, but you can call me Orlando Bloomin Onion" and he took off his hat and had a bloomin onion for hair...

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 05:16:39 GMT

I couldn't be anymore heartbroken, disgusted, ashamed, tired, angry,fuck I could go on and on... IN MY LIFE....

I cannot wait for California... leave this state..start a new fucking life. I hate EVERYONE here. no one FUCKING CARES.

someone that loves you would never think or would ever want to do certian things that will remain unmentioned.

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:35:49 GMT

R.I.P. vinnie vignola....

such a good person, nice gentleman. too fucking young to die.

oh well

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 01:56:10 GMT

I dreamt of a fever, one that would cure me of this cold winter-set heart.
With heat to melt these frozen tears, burned with reasons as to carry on.
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow,
but I swear that I would follow anything, just get me out of here.
But you get six months to adapt
And you get two more to leave town
And in the event that you do adapt
We still might not want you around

But I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose,
but I know that that's impossible now.
And so I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories,
because I just can't think anymore about that or about him tonight.

But I give myself three days to feel better,
or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff.
Because if I can't learn to make myself feel better,
how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?

And I scream for the sunlight, or a car to take me anywhere.
Just get me past this dead and eternal snow.
Cause I swear that I'm dying, slowly but it's happening,
and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere,
just take me there, just take me there, just take me there.

Lie to me and say it's gonna be all right
It's gonna be all right....

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 18:42:20 GMT

I don't think I can ever be content in my life. Everything is ALWAYS just so confusing. I am so confused right now. I've been like this since the day I was born. I never knew myself. I wish I could find myself. I feel as if I basically just exist. My mind... I don't even know.. .Anyone and anything could never do.

Lying in my bed again,
And I cry 'cause you're not here.
Crying in my head again,
And I know that it's not clear.

Put your hands, put your hands,
Inside my face and see that it's just you.
But it's bad and it's mad and it's making me sad,
Because I can't be with you.

Thinking back on how things were,
And on how we loved so well.
I wanted to be the mother of your child,
And now it's just farewell.

Put your hands in my hands,
And come with me, we'll find another end.
And my head, and my head on anyone's shoulder,
'Cause I can't be with you.

Still in love with you.

tekno love song

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 01:42:01 GMT

I fell in love with a bad bad man
Every since I met him
I've been sad sad sad
June faded in the bloom
The september moon waned and gloomed
Your perfume haunted me
Long after I saw
The swing
Of heaven's gate
Opening toward me

Luxurious in your arms
Your smile
Is a cool sun in the dark
Misery rejoices when you near
And fever,
No sound of sickness keeps me burning down in my heart
Winter melts, she shys away
Quiet, like the silence a dying star makes
I'm a jailbird to your music, a criminal in your prayers
I watch you when you sleep, even when you're not there

Rainbows wept colour all over the streets
When you went away
Maybe one day we'll meet

Shadows parade outside my door
I wish we were dancing 'cross this old floor
Car horns honkin' down that dirty street
Wish you were yelling time to wash my feet
Lipstick I'd wear
For one million years
Just to stop the tears
Your eyes from fallin',

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 11:01:54 GMT

I pooped my pants the other night...

I was real drunk. I drank too much wine.. and I couldn't stop farting and one time it was poop. so i went to the bathroom to take my undies off and i wrapped it in toilet paper and threw it out in the trashcan and when i woke up the next morning (sober).. i took notice that my friend didn't have any trashcans in his apartment.

HAHAA

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 04:35:44 GMT

I am having fun lately. so cool. so cool.

but now I have something big to worry about, it sucks.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 22:18:23 GMT

I am going to philly this weekend. Katie is having a party. head automatica and the audition will be there. not my usual type of music, but shall be good times like always.

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 04:52:24 GMT

Tiny spirit in a k-hole
Bloated like soggy cereal
God will come and wash away
Our tattoos and all the cocaine
And all of the aborted babies
Will turn into little bambies

Wounded river push along
Searching for that desert song
And Mozart's requiem will play
On tiny speakers made of clay
Tell my mother that I love her
Martin Luther you're an angel

Charming monkey saunter swagger
Drunken donkey limbs disjointed
Your chest is a petting zoo
Mexican pony fucked up shoes
I dreamt one thousand basketball courts
Nothing holier than sports

Dragonfly kiss your tail
Precious robot built so frail
Universe of milk and ember
Your hot kiss in mid december
What's god's name I can't remember
Trough the crack eye lovely weather

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 00:50:55 GMT

i had an amazing time last night, with a wonderful person. my heart flutters....

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 04:10:24 GMT

I watched The Departed today. It was an okay film. I heard the Chinese version as better. Also, they have a 2 and 3. I watched Flags of our Fathers, didn't finish watching it, but from what I actually did see of it, was good. The Japanese version looks great though.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 11:18:59 GMT

Boxing Helena was extremely terrible and a pointless film. another waste of time..

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 07:18:49 GMT

Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me was fucking shitty.